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My heart is breaking because I’m no longer a teenager…

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This is not about how old I am (still considered young by many at the age of 28), how to age gracefully, or what we think happens only to old people (how old is old, anyway?). This is about the aging of my own body as I see and feel it.

Lately I’ve been feeling really tired. Not lazy-tired, not lethargic, nor just sleepy. I’m talking about feeling so tired I have to drag myself out of the house. So tired I leave dishes in the sink unwashed for days (believe me, that’s not like me), clothes piling up in the laundry basket, floor unswept for weeks (again,. this is so not me). The most I’ve been able to cook is porridge plus one additional dish, and I usually enjoy cooking. All I want to do all day is to lie down.

It doesn’t help that I’ve been falling sick very often, which really zaps me of my energy. If it’s not one infection it’s another, or an allergy, or PMS. In between I barely have the strength to wake up every morning.

So what has this got to do with aging, you say? Well, I’ve never felt so tired before. All my life I’ve been prone to falling sick, but even after a bout of bronchitis, I was well enough to wake up in the wee hours of the morning, do 11-hour long flights from Dubai to Germany and back again. That was just 2 years ago. Now I drag myself to school for 2 hours of teaching and when I get home I’m exhausted. Sigh.

And I’ve developed an aversion to antibiotics recently. This from someone who has taken countless types of antibiotics countless times since her childhood days and always saw them as her friends. Now I feel nauseous whenever I take antibiotics.

I’m convinced that my body has begun the downwards spiral of aging which actually starts the minute one is born. It’s just that at a certain age, all sort of cells start dying faster than thebody can make new ones, and so the results of againg start to show. I think my body has just crossed the “magical” age.

P.S.: I’m no medical professional so the above theory is just my own. But of course, common sense denotes that all mortals age, sooner or later.